Ya Huh

I'm at home and I'm thinking to myself, "Why do I do the things I do?" and "Why do the things that happen to me happen?" God, You have a lot to explain once I finally find you...just You wait. Um but yeah I get myself confused trying to figure this out. Generally I think to much, mainly on how I can improve my situations, my answeer to myself this year was to do whatever I can possible to forget that I'm having such horrible luck. *Sigh*